Brian and Alicia Rose are friends and worship pastor's in Kansas City. Alicia gave birth to their daughter, a primie, London Joy who is 6 lbs and struggling to breathe. These are the thoughts and prayers of her father Brian from his journal:
Title: There is no substitute for the presence of Jesus by Brian Rose (Notes) on Wednesday, June 26, 2013 at 2:42pm
It's been a few long days and nights this past week caring for the life of baby London Joy. It's not over yet, but what an amazing gift she is to our world. We are so thankful He's entrusted us with His life. We can't imagine life without her and it's only been 2 days. We understand that what we see isn't always the full picture of what's happening.
Through all the highs and lows of the week, and this pregnancy in general which is a miracle in itself, I'm always amazed by how real the presence of Jesus is to us. There is no substitute for the presence of Jesus. You can't manufacture it. Of course, there has been lots of smiles and many more tears this week, but as I was alone with my baby today, I started to read to her Ps. 92 as she was in NICU.
Here's what it says:"It is good to give thanks to the Lord,And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High;To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning,And Your faithfulness every night,On an instrument of ten strings,On the lute,And on the harp,With harmonious sound.For You,Lord, have made me glad through Your work;I will triumph in the works of Your hands.O Lord, how great are Your works.Your thoughts are very deep.
The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree,He shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon.Those who are planted in the house of the Lord shall flourish in the courts of our God.They shall still bear fruit in old age;They shall be fresh and flourishing,To declare that the Lord is upright;He is my rock, and there is no unrighteousness in Him."
Well, I didn't even get through the first verse without bawling. I couldn't even get the words out. LOL Took me two minutes to start over and again, didn't get much farther.=) It took me 10 minutes to read those verses to London. However, eventually she heard them. We've been speaking so much life and destiny over London Joy and even like John the Baptist leaped for joy in Luke 1 in Elizabeth's womb, we believe the Spirit of God is so strong on her life right now.
I gathered myself when my wife came down and we put on quiet worship music on my iphone and put it right next to her ventilator, my wife sat on my lap, and we just starred at our baby and as we wait on the healing to come. It's the hardest thing in the world to stay composed in those moments together. Too many tears. But the Spirit of God was so strong in that room!
Full healing is on it's way. It's just a matter of time-His time!
We are simply vessels in the hands of an extraordinary Creator and He's painting on a canvass bigger than we can possibly fathom. These moments just make us dig deeper for our joy. That's something that isn't shaken by circumstances.
One of the biggest blessings we are seeing through this is knowing that my greatest ministry platform is not on any size stage but in my own home. And this has allowed my wife and I to have a great platform to walk our kids through it, point them to Jesus, allow them to see us respond to different seasons of life, and allows them to not just hear us praying, but gives them the chance to pray out loud like champs and expect healing for people.
We do life as a family!!! Of course we try to talk to them at their level of life, but we want them to see the power of Jesus at work for themselves-not just hear it but see and experience it. My heart is so moved hearing genuine prayers coming from the mouth of my babies.
My wife is so strong. She's my hero. I wish everyone could see her walk through this like a powerful woman of God. There's nothing in the world I love more than seeing my wife smile! Being a mom is what she's made to do. It's a calling and the greatest call to ministry I can think of. She's amazing at it. She's walked through this with so much courage, strength, and faith. My family is so blessed to have her at the heart of our home.
The song Cornerstone has been our anchor. "My anchor holds within the veil. Christ alone, Cornerstone. Weak made strong in the Saviors love. Through the storm He is Lord, Lord of all."
We have found out that most of the nurses and doctors working on London are not believers. The Roses are fully surrendered to the will of God. So if this momentary pain is what is needed to turn some hearts to Him then that's what our lives are meant for. It's meant to be spent to show everyone what an amazing God we serve. One of the top neurologist KC has been working on her today and is amazed that she is as strong as she is with sick lungs.
Every time she comes in, despite some of the test results, she says, "I'm amazed that despite what the X-Rays show she looks good, is at peace, breathing a lot more strong than she should be with what's inside of her." It's not crazy. It's Jesus. And they get to see the prayers and hear the music as we just sit in silence and look at London.
He is not good because of anything we've done or deserve. He is good because that's who He is. We don't deserve anything and yet still He's been more than generous with His kindness, mercy and faithfulness. He's never failed the Roses yet and never will. No matter what happens in life, there is no plan B. There is nowhere else for us to go. We're all in.
There's no one I trust more with my babies than the One who fashioned them with His own hands. In every season we have reason to sing and worship! Thank you for all your prayers and love this week. The Roses love and appreciate you more than you all know!=) All of your thoughts and prayers are felt in a great way.